Tired

Fatigue from feeling overwhelmed.

Alright I think that’s enough Debs

It’s time to stop here,

You’ve tried 

again 

and 

again

and

again. 
I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired

I guess this is moving on 

Thanks gnash for the reminder 

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Reason

Why we do what we do? 

Usually because of how we feel and these actions stems from our beliefs. When our beliefs are right then we do the right thing viceversa. But sometimes we act on our emotions and it leads us to the wrong things. 

I don’t know if it’s flawed to be led by raw emotions but I believe it largely to be. I don’t know why but it’s just at times you make the worst decisions acting out on feelings alone so yeah

Most moments these conflicts me and I just have to wait it out a little. See what I should really be doing then act on what I should do.

It’s difficult at times because we’re “born this way” “brought up like that” etc. 

Excuses they are. But it hints of a certain glimpse of truth in it. 

“You don’t know what you don’t know”

First step to change starts with realizations. 

After realizing, I’ll try to do that. However, getting to realizations in itself is a difficult feat. 

Applaud to those who are in the right lane. 

It’s 12:43AM right now. This is a rather rough late night unedited and unplanned write. Just needed to put this out there. Hopefully it helps me sleep better after getting it somewhat together. 

Good night friends

The chasse

The chase.

Whoever’s willing to be placed on the line, risks the most.

The gamble.

Whoever who withdraws first, wins.

The games.

Because we indulge in the primal hunt.

The thrill.

Any day, we’d do it all over again.

 

No winner without a loser

No loser without a winner

Who’s really winning at the end of the day?

We don’t know

All we’re after is the chase.

Sense less

Detachment. Emotional detachment. It’s a darned good place to be in. It feels good to be able to feel things from a differently neutral perspective.

It’s pointless. Why do we need to feel so much. It don’t mind it don’t matter. In a few years time it won’t even be real. If it feels and seems too much, it’s really not.

All we are being is dramatic.

Yeah, sometimes I underplay emotions and situations but it don’t matter at all. To say it affects means weakness, vulnerability, liabilities.

Really don’t care much for many things now. It’s just all attention seeking. Tbh, don’t really need to chase those anyways. At the end of the day, does it? really? matter?

That’s how you keep yourself save, unexposed, complete and whole. Opened to the elements just destroys you through and through. They take the advantage when you leave it opened.

Lmao, its funny to laugh at the peculiarity of it all.

Scratch that bby,

suck it up like spilt syrup.

In dependency

 

You meant well

But all they wanted to give you was hell

Made a wrong turn once or twice

Dug my way out blood and fire

Bad decisions that’s alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated misplaced misunderstood

Miss ‘no way its all good’ it didn’t slow me down

(actually it did)

Mistaken always second guessing underestimated

Look I’m still around

Pretty pretty please,

don’t you ever ever feel

like you’re less than

f-ing perfect?

These are lyrics from pink’s perfect, it’s been a fave of mine for some time now, recommend listening to it if you ever feel inadequate it’s a good song to calm the insides lol old but gold